Gaia is such a humungous community that I can feel overwhelmed. I still feel like I’m barely beginning to get to know people. Whereas, in some smaller online communities I’ve joined, the getting-to-know period was much shorter.
I came here to blog, but I also wanted to connect with other bloggers. So far, I haven’t been successful in this. I joined a bunch of pods and have posted quite a bit. But I get the sense that most bloggers don’t post in pods much and most pod members don’t blog much. I’ve gained a number of friends almost all of which invited me as a friend, but even so few of them ever comment in my blogs. I go out of my way to comment in the blogs of others, but few of those people comment in my blog in return. Many people who are the most active bloggers also seem to be the least active commentors in other people’s blogs. And a few of the most active bloggers don’t even seem all that interested in responding to comments to their own blogs.
Basically, connecting is an issue. Deborah mentioned that the blog comments between Nicole and I felt like a private conversation. That surely isn’t my intention. And it wouldn’t feel that way if more people responded.
However, I’ve come across bloggers who have been around since the beginning of Zaadz… and some of them get very few comments in their blogs. It seems that there are a few bloggers that get lots of comments and a vast majority of bloggers that get few. I guess its just like popularity in normal life.
Another aspect to my minor frustration is that I wonder if the reason for a small number of people commenting implies a lack of interest in the topics I blog about. There are several reasons I can think of.
First, I tend to blog about very intellectual topics. And, yet, the intellectual crowd around here seems mostly limited to integral folks which I haven’t been drawn to blog (or post) much about.
This bring me to the second reason. I tend to write about very alternative viewpoints which by definition aren’t shared by the vast majority. I wouldn’t be surprised that many of the books I read aren’t read by anyone else on Gaia… The Melancholy Android anyone?
For the third… I’m not the most positive and activist person even in the normal world. And certainly not on Gaia where positivity and activism is idealized above all else.
I’m not having a pity party. Or if I am, it isn’t my purpose for blogging about this. I want to connect with others in such a way that it causes them to be interested in connecting with me. I want to blog, but not in isolation. However, the more I try to reach out to connect to others, the less time I have to blog. Should I simply do my own thing in my blog and just stop worrying about whether or not others care about what I blog about?
Part of me wonders if I fit in with the Gaia community. As I’ve said elsewhere, I do resonate with the community here, but the question is whether the community resonates with me. Whatever the case, I doubt I’d find another blogging community that I’d feel more comfortable with or in which it would be easier to connect with others. I do like the sense that Gaia feels like a genuine community and a very active one at that.
More importantly, I’m just frustrated because my time is limited. I always have to choose how to spend my time especially as I can be very thorough in my writings. Should I spend more time blogging and less time posting in pods? Should I take all of those pods off of email notification? Should I limit myself to only one pod? Should I stop trying so hard to connect with others and simply trust that the like-minded will find my blog on their own?
I like Gaia and don’t plan going anywhere. I’m just trying to figure out how to improve my experience here… and how to decrease my frustration.